Jurnal · Anton Kusnadi

Art··5 min

The Calling of Saint Matthew: Light Before the Choice

Old coins scattered on a dark wooden table, crossed by a single hard shaft of light.

Executive Summary


Back to the Counting Table

I opened the first of these notes inside this painting, used it for a page, and moved on. It deserves more than a page. So: back to the side chapel of San Luigi dei Francesi, where Caravaggio’s Calling of Saint Matthew has hung since 1600, one wall of three he painted for the Contarelli Chapel.

The scene is a plain room. Five men sit at a table with money on it — counting, recording, leaning in. Two figures have just entered at the right: Christ, mostly hidden behind Peter, and above his head a hard diagonal of light that owes nothing to the room’s window, which Caravaggio pointedly paints dark. A hand extends. Some of the men look up. One, at the far end of the table, does not: head down, spectacles of concentration, still counting coins.

The gospel behind it is a single verse, Matthew 9:9 — a tax collector at his booth, two words spoken, a man standing up from his old life. Caravaggio gives the verse a before and after, and traps us in the before.

Men in the Wrong Century

The first thing a Roman viewer in 1600 would have noticed is the clothes. The men at the table wear what fashionable young Romans wore that year — feathered hats, striped sleeves, swords. Christ and Peter wear the timeless robes of another world, and enter barefoot. The anachronism is not carelessness; it is the sermon. Caravaggio drags a first-century calling into the viewer’s own century and seats it among people dressed like the ones standing in the chapel looking at it. The painting refuses to let the event be historical. It happens now, at a table that looks like yours.

The Borrowed Hand

Christ’s pointing hand is the most quoted gesture in the picture, and it is itself a quotation. The languid, half-open hand repeats Adam’s from Michelangelo’s Creation on the Sistine ceiling — not God’s commanding finger, but Adam’s receiving one. Painters and theologians have circled the choice for centuries: Christ as the second Adam, extending toward Matthew the same hand through which life first arrived. Whatever Caravaggio intended, the effect on the wall is unmistakable. The gesture does not command. It offers. A command would end the scene; an offer keeps it open.

Which One Is Matthew?

And the scene stays open in a second way, one scholars still argue about. The bearded man in the middle points — but at whom? At himself: who, me? Or sideways, at the young man at the end of the table who has not looked up from the coins? Both readings survive close looking, and I have come to think the ambiguity is the painting’s deepest device. If the bearded man is Matthew, we are watching recognition. If the boy is Matthew, we are watching the moment before it — called, lit, and still counting.

Either way, notice what the light does: it falls across the entire table. Everyone at the money is lit. The call in this painting is not a spotlight on one man; it is a general illumination in which one man will eventually stand up. The difference between the figures is not the light they receive. It is what they do inside it.

Miserando atque Eligendo

In the eighth century, the Venerable Bede wrote a homily on that same verse of Matthew, and one clause of it outlived the rest: Jesus saw the tax collector, miserando atque eligendo — seeing him with mercy, and choosing him. Mercy first, choice second. It is, in six syllables of Latin, a precise reading of what Caravaggio would paint eight hundred years later: the light arrives before the decision; the seeing comes before the standing up.

Jorge Mario Bergoglio took that clause as his motto when he became a bishop, and kept it when he became Pope Francis. The connection was not academic. He traced his own vocation to a confession on the feast of Saint Matthew in 1953, when he was sixteen — and as pope he told his interviewer that whenever he stayed in Rome as a cardinal, he would go to San Luigi dei Francesi to sit before this painting. Of Caravaggio’s Christ he said: “That finger of Jesus, pointing at Matthew. That’s me.” He carried the motto for the rest of his life; he died in 2025 still under it.

I find something exact in the fact that a papal motto — the compressed statement of how a man understood his entire office — turned out to be a caption for a painting. And not for the embrace of the Prodigal Son, mercy at the end of the story, but for the counting table: mercy at the beginning, aimed at a man still holding the money, before he has done a single thing to deserve it.

That is the discussion this painting has been holding open for four hundred years. The light is general. The hand does not command. The coins are still on the table, and the youngest man has not yet looked up. Bede supplied the grammar, Caravaggio the stage, Bergoglio the proof that the scene was never only about Matthew.

The call, in this room, is not the dramatic part. The dramatic part is the pause — and every figure at the table is living in it.